ME(jaded)
Jaded. verb. means tired, worn-out, exhausted.
A state of mind more than physical that encompasses a situation where all your efforts seem to vanish into thin air. You put your best foot forward yet fail. You stand up, yet you fail. You fight not to win, but for the glory.
When does someone get jaded. Fancy isn't that word? If you hear it for the first time, you would get a positive vibe, so strange considering its just the opposite. But since most of it is in the mind, it really is not that difficult to fathom the reason behind the same.
According to me, we use this word when we do not see any hope anymore. We know we could have done this much, pushed ourselves to that extreme and then fall down in a heap. Results do not matter now, outcomes hardly effect. What effects is the destruction of self belief.
But few people have the courage to get back and try one last time. I have seen those people succeed. Right now no one can be more jaded than me... down and out after fighting a lonely battle with the world for 16 hours, I am nothing but a mass of meat. My mind is numb, my heart just beats mechanically. But I somehow see a flicker. A flicker which helps me write now. A flicker which results from someone who has come up truimph every time. Someone who has made comebacks a habit, and sometimes from places you shiver to get down to. Someone who has been an inspiration to me all the while... showing the best when the odds are high, when the cast is laid and when the society has written it off...
Yes, I am tired today... I cant fight anymore, but I hope that my inspiration stays beside me to fight it out once more... one last time, before the state of being Jaded is final.
Today, I accept how helpless I am sitting here all alone, fighting to regain myself, my worth, my confidence, ME(JADED)...
A state of mind more than physical that encompasses a situation where all your efforts seem to vanish into thin air. You put your best foot forward yet fail. You stand up, yet you fail. You fight not to win, but for the glory.
When does someone get jaded. Fancy isn't that word? If you hear it for the first time, you would get a positive vibe, so strange considering its just the opposite. But since most of it is in the mind, it really is not that difficult to fathom the reason behind the same.
According to me, we use this word when we do not see any hope anymore. We know we could have done this much, pushed ourselves to that extreme and then fall down in a heap. Results do not matter now, outcomes hardly effect. What effects is the destruction of self belief.
But few people have the courage to get back and try one last time. I have seen those people succeed. Right now no one can be more jaded than me... down and out after fighting a lonely battle with the world for 16 hours, I am nothing but a mass of meat. My mind is numb, my heart just beats mechanically. But I somehow see a flicker. A flicker which helps me write now. A flicker which results from someone who has come up truimph every time. Someone who has made comebacks a habit, and sometimes from places you shiver to get down to. Someone who has been an inspiration to me all the while... showing the best when the odds are high, when the cast is laid and when the society has written it off...
Yes, I am tired today... I cant fight anymore, but I hope that my inspiration stays beside me to fight it out once more... one last time, before the state of being Jaded is final.
Today, I accept how helpless I am sitting here all alone, fighting to regain myself, my worth, my confidence, ME(JADED)...
posted by cyberoam at 9:52 PM
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